Lov3 Life sux

everytime i c her i feel very depressed
everytime i c her i feel very nervous
everytime i c her i feel scared
everytime i c her my heart will stop a few seconds
everytime i c her i feel left out
n everytime i c her i feel like saying I LOVE U..
but i dunno y i cant express it out
i just cant let it out frm my heart
its just kept it lock der
i cant imagine it if she cannot accept it
im willing 2 kill myself..
its all in my head..
i just get it out
I lOVE HER VERY MUCH..
cant stop it
cant 4get it
its all in my head
its so painful

why

why is der always a person 2 make u feel down wenever u r happy ??
why is der sadness in life...
why r der noobs ppl 2 make ur whole day like a living hell
i just do not get wads life all about...
why is der always a blockage wen ever v r almost half way 2 our destination
i just cant understand wats life all about...
is it trying 2 tell me smtg??
is it trying 2 make me feel bad??
is it normally like dat??
is it trying 2 lead me 2 somwer??
man....i just cant figyre it out...
WATS LIFE ALL ABOUT MAN....
ITS SOME HOW LIKE A SHIT FEELING...
DONT UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL....
ITS SO HARD...