why life is like this???

why life is so buzy?
why life could be so hard?
why life can be so board?
why life can be so soft?
why life can vanish the next day?
why,why,why???
its all questions in life...
the problem is there are too many why's in life which i nor you or anyone else can solve...
this is one thing i hate the most is i can't solve my problem no metter how hard, how much or how i tried to solve it...
it can appear right infront of me just in a blink of an eye...
so many problems and yet nothing is solved YET...
maybe the answers are right infront of me but yet i did not know it or just did not notice it...
ita just too many too much of problems in my life..
maybe thats the reasons of me being such a flop or failure in my life...
this will haunt me down till i die...
thats the problems in my life

StreSSed

Ive nvr felt so tired and miserable before its just the reopening of college all my scheduel are so tight aspecially my stupid assignments

its filling up my head

i just cant stand it

its like its gonna burst out of my head anytime anywhere
i cant even take a rest
everyday is so tiring i just feel like giving up ive got many problems but i just do not want to burden anyone with mine although i am desperate for getting it all out from my life but its just like pilling up like blocks of buildings
i do not know how long i can tolerate this feeling of mine its just suffering if i just face it on my own i just want to get everything out from my mind i want my mind to just take a rest take it all out or just forget it for a while
i just want my happy childhood to repeat itself again i just want to be happy again like ive been before its just too much problems
everyone just giving me more and more problems each day i cant handle it all in one go its just too stessfull i just want my life to be happy again
no love feelings towards anyone
no hatred towards anyone
no vangence
no stress
no pain
i just want my life to be normal once again

HATRED in Me

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i hate myself 4 not carin
i hate myself 4 not be a loving person
i hate myself 4 not being der wen dat person needed me de most
i hate myself 4 being such a looser
i cant stand it everything i do is wrong
everything like threating her like a looser...
i'll nvr ever getting her back ever again...
SO HEART BROKEN....
I HATE MYSELF 4 WAT I AM...

EmpTy

I wanted to tell you something but when ever I see you I forget my words
in other words you r some one dat is too special
when ever I see you my brain is empty leaving only your face in my head
now.....
Im empty.....
because you are no more in my life anymore
you had left me for your own good
now......
I tried to write something bout you but Im so EMPTY
there is something left out
there is something that i've left out which I'm not so sure whats that
but all I know for now is
Im empty

my heart still misses som1 dat i love so much last time and now i still love "dat person" alot....
no metter wat happens my heart will stil b missing dat person coz of my blind love feelings 2wards "dat person"
i dunno wats wit me
u can call me stupid,nut case,crazy,out of my mind,fucking bloody no brains human,etc
i will always love dat person
its been a few years since i started loving "dat person"
but all i kno my wish can nvr come tru....
ive tried 2 impress "em" but it seemed dat has no effect 2 "em"
its been a let down
but all i kno i still love "em" no metter wat will hapen 2 me
if i die...
i'll die loving "em"
love is blind n strong
and
it shall nvr b stopped 1ce u love a special som1