StreSSed

Ive nvr felt so tired and miserable before its just the reopening of college all my scheduel are so tight aspecially my stupid assignments

its filling up my head

i just cant stand it

its like its gonna burst out of my head anytime anywhere
i cant even take a rest
everyday is so tiring i just feel like giving up ive got many problems but i just do not want to burden anyone with mine although i am desperate for getting it all out from my life but its just like pilling up like blocks of buildings
i do not know how long i can tolerate this feeling of mine its just suffering if i just face it on my own i just want to get everything out from my mind i want my mind to just take a rest take it all out or just forget it for a while
i just want my happy childhood to repeat itself again i just want to be happy again like ive been before its just too much problems
everyone just giving me more and more problems each day i cant handle it all in one go its just too stessfull i just want my life to be happy again
no love feelings towards anyone
no hatred towards anyone
no vangence
no stress
no pain
i just want my life to be normal once again

HATRED in Me

untitled Current mood: angry Category: Life
i hate myself 4 not carin
i hate myself 4 not be a loving person
i hate myself 4 not being der wen dat person needed me de most
i hate myself 4 being such a looser
i cant stand it everything i do is wrong
everything like threating her like a looser...
i'll nvr ever getting her back ever again...
SO HEART BROKEN....
I HATE MYSELF 4 WAT I AM...

EmpTy

I wanted to tell you something but when ever I see you I forget my words
in other words you r some one dat is too special
when ever I see you my brain is empty leaving only your face in my head
now.....
Im empty.....
because you are no more in my life anymore
you had left me for your own good
now......
I tried to write something bout you but Im so EMPTY
there is something left out
there is something that i've left out which I'm not so sure whats that
but all I know for now is
Im empty

my heart still misses som1 dat i love so much last time and now i still love "dat person" alot....
no metter wat happens my heart will stil b missing dat person coz of my blind love feelings 2wards "dat person"
i dunno wats wit me
u can call me stupid,nut case,crazy,out of my mind,fucking bloody no brains human,etc
i will always love dat person
its been a few years since i started loving "dat person"
but all i kno my wish can nvr come tru....
ive tried 2 impress "em" but it seemed dat has no effect 2 "em"
its been a let down
but all i kno i still love "em" no metter wat will hapen 2 me
if i die...
i'll die loving "em"
love is blind n strong
and
it shall nvr b stopped 1ce u love a special som1

Lov3 Life sux

everytime i c her i feel very depressed
everytime i c her i feel very nervous
everytime i c her i feel scared
everytime i c her my heart will stop a few seconds
everytime i c her i feel left out
n everytime i c her i feel like saying I LOVE U..
but i dunno y i cant express it out
i just cant let it out frm my heart
its just kept it lock der
i cant imagine it if she cannot accept it
im willing 2 kill myself..
its all in my head..
i just get it out
I lOVE HER VERY MUCH..
cant stop it
cant 4get it
its all in my head
its so painful

why

why is der always a person 2 make u feel down wenever u r happy ??
why is der sadness in life...
why r der noobs ppl 2 make ur whole day like a living hell
i just do not get wads life all about...
why is der always a blockage wen ever v r almost half way 2 our destination
i just cant understand wats life all about...
is it trying 2 tell me smtg??
is it trying 2 make me feel bad??
is it normally like dat??
is it trying 2 lead me 2 somwer??
man....i just cant figyre it out...
WATS LIFE ALL ABOUT MAN....
ITS SOME HOW LIKE A SHIT FEELING...
DONT UNDERSTAND IT AT ALL....
ITS SO HARD...